All through my childhood, I was an artist. I was in the advanced placement art program in elementary school. I remember painting this really strange flamingo (the animal I had an obsessive passion about between ages 7-13) with a bizarrely Q-bert neck looking down at its baby flamingo. I stared at it often in my room after it was complete, and wished I hadn’t made the neck so weird.
Ah, self-judgement. You’re such an a-hole.
Around junior high, I stopped art completely and replaced it with student government and peer education. I found joy in being productive, in DOING stuff that helped people. I got really, really busy – to the point of finding an identity in it. Hilariously, when I look back through my pre-teen journals with all the lists of stuff I had to do, it’s still intense in a pre-teen sort of way. (Real example: do bangs, buy hairspray, practice square dancing, finish English paper about free speech, figure out how to turn off CAPS LOCK on Dad’s computer, find out if Jason likes Suzanne, write a rap to publicize the Valentine’s Day dance.)
Yes, rapping. I did that.
So yeah, I got busy when I was 14, and I haven’t stopped since. It defined me in a weird way. But this year, at my busiest ever with 2 companies and 2 kids, I’m re-thinking time and how I spend it. Lately I’ve been working smarter, not harder – and chasing ease instead of getting things done on principle. I feel lighter. And have been way more productive.
I’m also getting back to art. Not “good” art per se, nor art I can really sell or really do anything with. But just art for the sake of creating…for the process, not the end result. My art will be the companion to my writing, another thing I’ve loved my entire life and find all too easy to neglect in my busy-ness.
Because being busy is sooooo overrated, when at the end of the day, you feel depleted and overwhelmed.
This website is now a gateway to my work, and a place for my creativity to live. No rules, no focus. Slowly but surely, I’ll be illustrating all my past blog posts, so soon it will become a lot more colorful.
That said, I do appreciate specificity, so here’s a guide to my work: If you want safety/ass kicking/girl power – go to Girls Fight Back. If you want to be a more effective speaker/author/thought leader – go to evoso. (website coming soon – subscribe for updates) If you want unbridled Weed in all her random glory, stay here.
I am kicking off my creative statement to the world by drawing my version of a tweety bird for my Twitter page. (yay for accountability!) If you’ve been waiting for an excuse, a sign, a nudge to get back to your art, in whatever form that takes…maybe this is it, and it’s time to chose creativity. Because I assure you, none of us will all of a sudden be bestowed with more time on our hands for it to choose you.